I've had failures in my past 4 years. Not even ten occurences, maybe less than eight. They included things with high school, applying to college(s), relationships, friendships, personal goals and other things that normal people encounter. Each of these things ^...I could tell a story about. The part where I failed, or didn't achieve what I wanted, hurt bad. Really bad. Some of these failures , I live with my everyday, and my surroundings are a constant reminder of a choice or decision I should have made. I'm really scared that despite all the positive things that are happening around me, one more failure or bad thing will just make me plummet. So in this sense, my failure is holding me back. I'm supposed to be studying for a test now, but I can't focus because my mind is wondering everywhere else.
Often I feel so inspired, and feel so capable and confident but then I feel like I'm scared of doing good, great, and wonderful...then failing. But I guess I should just remember, college (or life) is learning how to fail.
"No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead"